29.9.10

mood aku down [ unknown II ]






when no light shines, and no one there. this soul is corrupted, and thus heart is shadowed. hope is sealed, and dream is quenches. love is buried and faith is shattered. to that is why i shall mourned myself.

25.9.10

Love is Like Dota [ part II ]




Love is like DOTA because sometimes you wish you could turn back time

Love is like DOTA because you won't achieve anything alone or without cooperation

Love is like DOTA because once you start, you have to finish it

Love is like DOTA because everybody hates quitters

Love is like DOTA because you spend so much on items.

Love is like DOTA because you will be in grave danger if you don't know what your partner is capable of

Love is like DOTA because you can act as anyone you want to be.

Love is like DOTA because you'll never know who will be coming towards your way.

Love is like DOTA because if you want to surprise her, then go through the back door

Love is like DOTA because there are alot of distractions

Love is like DOTA because if you're in love or playing dota at that moment, you can't be disturbed at all

Love is like DOTA because you always ask help from your friends

Love is like DOTA because it brings barkada's together

Love is like DOTA because sometimes you wanna be invisible

Love is like DOTA because sometimes you wanna know what it's like switching places

Love is like DOTA because sometimes you perform better at night

Love is like DOTA because most of the players quit when they are having a hard time or they think they are going to lose

Love is like DOTA because it is time consuming

Love is like DOTA because you really can't do things by yourself

Love is like DOTA because you always have to be updated

Love is like DOTA because even though there are bugs, you don't know why they are there or what caused them


23.9.10

and i'm sick

hari ni pun aku sakit.dah berapa hari aku sakit...sakit dada,sakit kepala...lelah,ampus...aktiviti harian ku pun terhad,susah mau fokus untuk buat something,sesak nafasku..aku cuma bertahan dan tidak buat apa-apa..petang tadi pergi klinik, kazen yang hantar...macam biasa doktor tanya itu ini,cek itu ini then bagi ubat..hurmm...malas la story, see? mood pun hilang..



when i’m sick, i want a glass of bubur telur (just like childhood) and then i want everyone to leave me alone... i hate attention, even from my mother, when i’m under the weather...

13.9.10

Insomania





INSOMNIA...bisakah engkau tinggalkan aku seketika, just leave me for 4 hours and then you may comeback for the whole day long..i love you so, but not now,please leave me alone INSOMNIA…



*me: still,i'm awake..

12.9.10

mood aku down [ dedicated ]

In Closing...
If you've read this, I appreciate it. I appreciate all my friends and family who have endured through all my flakiness and bullshit. I feel like this time has been one of transition for me and it hasn't been the easiest. I can only hope that you will believe me when I say that I am trying. I am planning to go back to school this spring and actually get a job. I am very slowly learning to drive and eventually intend to finally get out of here for reals. I am 21 and not really as on top of things as I could be for my age... But I ain't dead yet. I have a lot of optimism left in me still, that all of this is working toward better. So if your faith in me has still managed to endure, well... Thanks.

11.9.10

mood aku down [ edisi raya ]







Tuhan..

Kucuba nyalakan api..
Tuhan..
Api ku mati..



the end

10.9.10

selamat hari raya [flash back]





kampung... rumah terbuka... ketupat... lemang... lepat..lepat? owh yang ni tiada haha.. rendang... dodol... baulu... ayam goreng... ayam masak kicap... lontong... lampu colok... lap lip...lilin.. bunga api... mercun.. mercun katak. meriam buluh. esctactic kids.... hitching a ride. air terjun. sungai…hutan kecik hutan besar..yada..yada..yada…haha..ok, concrete world…pagi ni bangun sangat-sangat lambat,lebih kurang 1.25pm...zzz,solat hari raya pun lama sudah habis...





*somehing to share

i liked this sms sent to be by my very close friend, brother and my sister. it goes like this…

Selamat Hari Raya .

Maaf zahir dan batin.

Forgive the wrongs and bads, yes.

Wishes, best.

Keep smiling, not more nor less.

Enjoy the food and celebration, I suggest.

Abg bila mau kawin ni? ;)





mungkin yang itu sahaja..and for me..here this..

selamat hari raya





SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF DIPINTA ANDAI ADA TERKASAR BAHASA, TERGURIS HATI, TERUMPAT, TERKEJI, ADA RASA TidAK PUAS HATI... OLEH ITU SAYA DENGAN RENDAH DIRI INGIN MENYUSUN SEPULUH JARI MEMOHON KEAMPUNAN DAN KEMAAFAN" the end...


9.9.10

life and think

sampai bila kita mau jadi orang lain…?? kenapa mau ikut orang lain…?? kenapa kita tidak jadi diri kita..?? dan kita yang menjadikannya satu kelainan…..sedar la!

8.9.10

realize…

thing that i need to report on...

Do U realize that you are wrong…???

Do U realize that other people suffered from your wrong doing…???

Do U ever think about paying back what you’ve done…???

Do U ever think about your actual condition from your exclusive conditions…???

Do U realize that U just like other people…?

Please…. wake-up “A” blow your fantasies away!!!

Wake-up…

Avoiding Enemies

1. Respect every one and show respect even if it annoys you to do so.
2. Do unto others as you would want them to do unto you.
3. Conduct your self with honor in all that you do.
4. Treat every one- even those that you utterly despise- with dignity.
5. Do good unto every man.
6. Take care and always be truthful even when it is not convenient to do so.
7. Avoid taking what is not yours for your own benefit.
8. Understand that it is wrong to commit infidelity or take a man’s woman from him, or if you are a woman never take another woman’s man.
9. Avoid becoming involved in matters that do not concern you.
10. Practice the golden rule and do not gossip or make false allegations.
11. Live peacefully with all men.
12. Cause no harm.
13. Keep secrets.


Sources from wikihow.com

5.9.10

Siaran 9 - Wings


Andai engkau mahu lihat
Keindahan yang ku lihat
Pejamkanlah lima-lima
Inderamu seketika

Dan bukakan pula mata hatimu
Dikit demi sedikit kasih
Pasti kau kan menangis
Kerna gembira
Sangat gembira melihatnya

Sehingga terasa
Pernah bersua
Tapi dah terlupa
Bila masa
Dan di mana
Di antara
Sebuah mimpi
Dengan kenangan
Engkau menyesal
Dan bersyukur

Kesal kerna memandang
Hanya sebelah mata
Tak pandai menghargai

Barang yang berharga
Syukur diberi
Peluang yang kedua kali
Untuk buktikan
Biar hujan petir
Kilat menyambar
Biar lautan api menyimbah
Biar terancam
Nyawamu
Dihujung pedang
Tapi kau lepaskan
Janji kau berikan
Untuk setia sepanjang
Meniti dan meniti hari

Kau kembali ke sisinya
Impianmu
Yang sebenar-benarnya ...

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*me: the song that i hear just now..the end.

4.9.10

perasaan ini





i think we need to talk..

about what?

Owh.. that…

(then)..

i wish all the best for you.. all the best thing in the world just for you. i hate this part right here to make a decision whereby i know i cant do nothing.. this is a good news.. its a change .. yaa a drastic change..

blurr? for now? what we have right now…? why so many question before that time is up..




*me; jangan kacau, don't disturb