wheres my tears go ?

when our skin wounded, the body builds up thick skin on that place... A thick skin that is stronger than the unwounded skin.. when our skin wounded again and again at the same spot, the sensitivity of the skin lessen and the thick skin will inevitably thicker. normal la tu,sebab memang kerja badan kita buat begitu,to protect the skin, it gives up "sensitivity for strength"...Similar things happen to our emotional injury...We become harder, colder, and less sensitive. less thoughtful about who we are, what is possible for us, and how we are ignoring that possibility.

kenapa susah betul aku mau lihat keadaan aku yang sebenar?". cuma tidak paham, why it’s easier to look at someone else’s situation more clearly but when it comes to mine, I just don't know what to do. I always have my words to cheer or lift others' spirit when they were sad but yet when I try to use them as my own cure, it fails...I'm no different homo sapiens from others,am I? then why....

There were times I felt so emotionless,frozen hearted and nothing become so big deals, but then there were also times I felt so insecure, seems like the "thick skin" had gone from protecting me and the sensitive spot is exposed with dangers. This is what I feel at this moment... takut betul...so insecure...macam ada sesuatu yang hilang tapi ndak tau apa itu...haunted by the contradictions...then when the tears flow but it brings me nowhere...


  1. However confused the scene of our life appears,however torn we may be who now do face that scene, and we can go on to be whole.Half of the confusion in the world comes from not knowing how little we need... live more simply now, and with more peace.

  2. yup..coz something is ending & something is begins

  3. "we become harder, colder and less sensitive..".. that's when u become such a heartless person. wat i understand right now, dis story is related 2 ur broken hearted right? well, u have to remember 1 thing. there is no such thing in this world is perfect. the broken heart will heal. it just the matter of time. and u may be so much stronger after dis. i've been there. pray. dat's all you can do. have a nice day ya. ;)