my love ?

4:42..finish my dota edi,wat else? thinking about her or thinking about my self? rude...annoying of me, i owes blame others ppl but i dont say it to them,ok here we goes..kisah lalu banyak mengajar kita sesuatu samaada kita ambik sebagai iktibar atau sebaliknya,(masa ni megantuk betul suda,but i cant even sleep coz my pillow to0 wet) hehe..dame..that past owes folowing,kemana saja aku pergi..diu~~i try to foget them but i cant :'( ntahla ..recently i was losing my sanity.ive bcome cold,pendiam and rebellious.its not that 'm liking it.tapi im moving towards it...i was so out of the mood.it's like everyone was turning back.it's like everything was fading away.so i guess i just turned away from all this megarut.the more i think,dota?something else? or love.the more it's hurt...so dame hurt,maybe i look something depan mata orang lain,but..honestly ..i feel hurt so much..so im leaving...goOsHh~~i knows love is hurt,pain like ass...but deep down from this littel heart says,Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs...hurmm...now i feel i got stunt by something...roshan maybe...hurmm

*the knife just next to my pillow... :'(